Pain has a way of making most of us irrational. [Certain sorts, at least. Unexpected sorts. L's capacity for handling physical pain and maintaining his cool was hardly in doubt.]
I doubtless would have found myself out a Bondmate. He wasn't thinking that far ahead. [Which is frightening and uncharacteristic, and he doesn't have to say as much to Eli.]
...And, unfortunately--I can't. This is not something he told me and he will not be glad to have it known about him; from past experience, if I were to confront him direct he'd deny that he'd ever contemplated doing such a thing. [A sigh.]
Which is not to say I haven't been trying to come up with stopgaps if something else happens to me, but I've nothing--yet--for the underlying issue. ["The underlying issue," he says so clinically, with a little frisson of dismay at himself for being able to do so when the underlying issue is his Bonded loving him so hopelessly and completely that a world without him in it was one not worth living in.
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I doubtless would have found myself out a Bondmate. He wasn't thinking that far ahead. [Which is frightening and uncharacteristic, and he doesn't have to say as much to Eli.]
...And, unfortunately--I can't. This is not something he told me and he will not be glad to have it known about him; from past experience, if I were to confront him direct he'd deny that he'd ever contemplated doing such a thing. [A sigh.]
Which is not to say I haven't been trying to come up with stopgaps if something else happens to me, but I've nothing--yet--for the underlying issue. ["The underlying issue," he says so clinically, with a little frisson of dismay at himself for being able to do so when the underlying issue is his Bonded loving him so hopelessly and completely that a world without him in it was one not worth living in.
What did one do for that?]