It freaks... a lot of people out, though. When I talk about something like that. I mean, how do you tell a friend that you want to die? Or...
[He squeezes her hand, sighs a bit shakily.]
When I did it... when I burned myself, I thought that was it. I thought that I would die. People would think I was some sort of martyr... or just think I was crazy. Didn't really care.
When I woke up in the hospital, I was... scared. More scared than I was of dying, because this meant that I had to actually work to figure out who I was, and to make up for all the things I used to be when I was SQUIPped.
The only thing I could really think about myself was that... that I was too chicken shit to actually off myself the right way.
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[He squeezes her hand, sighs a bit shakily.]
When I did it... when I burned myself, I thought that was it. I thought that I would die. People would think I was some sort of martyr... or just think I was crazy. Didn't really care.
When I woke up in the hospital, I was... scared. More scared than I was of dying, because this meant that I had to actually work to figure out who I was, and to make up for all the things I used to be when I was SQUIPped.
The only thing I could really think about myself was that... that I was too chicken shit to actually off myself the right way.