[Rich is surprised that he could say anything at this point that would take Aziraphale off guard, after so long bitching about his feelings, but apparently he has. He furrows his brow at first, confused, before he realizes what Aziraphale is getting at and nods, suddenly unsure for a different reason.]

Uh, yeah... More like it blocked any time I even tried to think about it. Like, "Hey, that guy's cute" or whatever, it'd try to change that on me. Make me think I just admired them for being strong like I couldn't. And I mean, if it couldn't get me to stop thinking like that, it'd shock me or something.

[Rich used to think it was kind of funny, how panicked it'd get over the mere concept of Rich being into a dude, but even as he's talking now, he realizes that maybe it wasn't so funny, and maybe it was a little disturbing under the surface.]