[Aziraphale would know better than him whether humans can be forgiven, and where the boundary was. Maybe his regret was enough. Maybe his attempts to do better really were helping. But... he remembers how Linden talked to him, that perhaps it wasn't merely the SQUIP's presence that guided Rich into becoming a bully... and he feels that sting of guilt tighe in his chest again.]
I always wonder how much control I really had. I keep... thinking that maybe it was just who I was, deep down. Maybe I was meant to be that awful and the SQUIP just brought it out of me. And, I don't know... it starts to feel like an excuse. Does that make any sense?
Maybe I'm just looking for reasons to hate myself.
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[Aziraphale would know better than him whether humans can be forgiven, and where the boundary was. Maybe his regret was enough. Maybe his attempts to do better really were helping. But... he remembers how Linden talked to him, that perhaps it wasn't merely the SQUIP's presence that guided Rich into becoming a bully... and he feels that sting of guilt tighe in his chest again.]
I always wonder how much control I really had. I keep... thinking that maybe it was just who I was, deep down. Maybe I was meant to be that awful and the SQUIP just brought it out of me. And, I don't know... it starts to feel like an excuse. Does that make any sense?
Maybe I'm just looking for reasons to hate myself.