Forgiveness doesn't... it doesn't feel like it's something I deserve yet. I feel like I should be trying harder.

[Jeremy still flinched once in a while when Rich teasingly punched his shoulder, Jake was still adjusting to living in an apartment... all his friends are slowly dealing with getting to know him for who he actually is, and how could they really forgive him for lying all this time?]

It's hard to explain. I hear everything you're saying, but... the stupid voice in my head is louder.