I did. I... didn't want to kill it. I know it deserves it, but... if there's any way to stop it without doing that, I feel like I should try that first.

Deactivating it might work. So fingers crossed.

[It's a struggle, to hear some people angry he almost killed it, and some angry he didn't have the courage to go through with killing it. He really doesn't know whether or not he made a mistake.]