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[darkcharge]

Name: Anonymous | Vanitas
Date: 3/1
Format: Text



[ So Vanitas has been terribly frustrated for the last few days trying to figure this out himself. Unfortunately, he isn't really equipped to come to the answers on his own. ]

Normally I wouldn't bother with things like this, but it would appear that all my other options are exhausted or unavailable.

A little while ago I found myself experiencing some strong urges. I can't say that they are entirely unfamiliar, but the circumstances and conditions are different. Wanting to throttle someone and make them pay is nothing new, but because they hurt someone I am acquainted with is. So I suppose my question there is why. This person is perfectly capable of handling it themselves so why is it that I also want to?

Which brings me to the second issue since this is all tied to the same situation. The look this person had on their face? I didn't like it and I don't want to see it again. That is new and I don't know what that means or what it is at all.

This is probably a waste of time, but I can't figure it out. So here we are.

[ tl;dr: Vanitas might actually care about someone - or at least have something of an urge to protect them - but he can't recognize it at all because pfft he's not the sort that does that, right? ]

Comments

text; un: kor

[spirialink]

Isn't it obvious? Of course you want to fight for your friends. There's no feeling worse than being unable to support your friends.

[darkcharge]

It wasn’t all that obvious to me. Wanting to have anything to do with people in general is foreign to me.

[spirialink]

well it sounds like you had a change of heart then. that's great, having people you care about's great!

[darkcharge]

So I keep hearing, though I am not entirely sold on the idea. Not yet.

[spirialink]

why not?

[darkcharge]

Because of what happens when you care too much.

[spirialink]

i've never heard of caring too much about somebody.

[darkcharge]

You'll commit to stupid actions. Or it can be taken away.

[spirialink]

[If you could see Kor right now, Vanitas, you'd see him shaking his head at you.]

That just makes it sound like you're afraid to care about people.

[darkcharge]

It's possible.

[ At least he is in a place where he can admit it. ]

[spirialink]

Don't you know the saying it's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all?

[darkcharge]

Nope.

[spirialink]

Huh... Well, you do now! You've already developed these new feelings so you should just embrace them! Repressing them's no good for you.

[darkcharge]

I'm not looking to repress anything. Maybe try to prevent it from happening again.

[spirialink]

But... Why? The way you're talking, you make it sound like it's actually bad for you.

[darkcharge]

Who knows? It could be.

[spirialink]

The connections you make with people and how they make you feel couldn't ever be bad for you. That's where real strength comes from!

[darkcharge]

Don't ever say something like that again. I think I am going to be sick.

[spirialink]

Huh, sick? Why? If you're feeling sick, then maybe you should see a doctor!

[Sorry, Vanitas, he isn't making the connection there.]

[darkcharge]

Metaphorically sick. Not literally sick.

[spirialink]

Oh. Well, what's making you feel so metaphorically sick all of a sudden, then?

[darkcharge]

Implying that strength comes from bonds like friendship.

[spirialink]

lol.

[A momentary pause.]

uhh did I use that right? that's funny, so I'm laughing out loud! There's nothing more powerful than the strength you draw from the connections you have with your friends!

[darkcharge]

Back to getting sick.

I don't need those lectures.

[spirialink]

I'm not lecturing! Just... telling you the truth? I don't get why that's making you sick, though.