text; anonymous

[darkcharge]

Name: Anonymous | Vanitas
Date: 3/1
Format: Text



[ So Vanitas has been terribly frustrated for the last few days trying to figure this out himself. Unfortunately, he isn't really equipped to come to the answers on his own. ]

Normally I wouldn't bother with things like this, but it would appear that all my other options are exhausted or unavailable.

A little while ago I found myself experiencing some strong urges. I can't say that they are entirely unfamiliar, but the circumstances and conditions are different. Wanting to throttle someone and make them pay is nothing new, but because they hurt someone I am acquainted with is. So I suppose my question there is why. This person is perfectly capable of handling it themselves so why is it that I also want to?

Which brings me to the second issue since this is all tied to the same situation. The look this person had on their face? I didn't like it and I don't want to see it again. That is new and I don't know what that means or what it is at all.

This is probably a waste of time, but I can't figure it out. So here we are.

[ tl;dr: Vanitas might actually care about someone - or at least have something of an urge to protect them - but he can't recognize it at all because pfft he's not the sort that does that, right? ]

Comments

[darkcharge]

At least someone thought to break it down for me.

[shadowsthedawn]

[Riku just happens to have a lifetime of real experience with these types of emotions, making it easy for him to break them down.]

You wanted to know why you were feeling this way, so I assumed you needed some kind of explanation. But I don't disagree with others that what this sounds like is friendship.

But if you're asking about this I'm assuming you don't have much experience with friendship, making it a pointless answer to give you without some context.

[He's assuming a lot, but he figures he'll be told if he's wrong.]

[darkcharge]

You wouldn't necessarily be wrong with your assumptions.

[ Which, of course, is true. Van has 0 experience with friendship. He had forced himself into believing that he hadn't wanted it. Hadn't needed it. So i's very hard for him to urn this around in his head. ]

Caring and fondness I can, perhaps, accept. This friendship thing might be a stretch.

[shadowsthedawn]

Caring and fondness are a part of friendship.

Can I ask why you think having a friend would be such a bad thing?

[From the other replies he's read Anon just seems to adamant about it not being friendship. He can't help but wonder.]

[darkcharge]

Because things like friends can be a hindrance.

[ And he doesn't know what to do with them. ]

[shadowsthedawn]

You're wrong about that.

[darkcharge]

If I have to hear another "friends are powerful" speech I think I will lose my lunch.

[shadowsthedawn]

I think I'll save you the stomach ache.

But if that many people are telling you you're wrong, maybe you should listen.

Also, this person you care about? Maybe you should ask them what they think.

It might be easier to hear coming from them.

[darkcharge]

I still don't think, even with so many people saying it, that anyone has the right to say what's "wrong."

[ Because that's so arbitrary. Such concepts like right and wrong are defined purely by opinion after all. ]

[shadowsthedawn]

And I don't think someone who hasn't experienced friendship can say that it's a hindrance.

A hindrance from what exactly?

[darkcharge]

I won't explain. To do so would mean that there's a good chance people could figure out who I am.

Can't have that.

[shadowsthedawn]

Fair enough.

I still say you should talk to this person. It couldn't hurt to be honest with them at least.

[But as far as advice goes that's all he has without knowing more.]

[darkcharge]

Oh there is no avoiding that conversation after this.

I didn't expect to remain unknown to them.

[shadowsthedawn]

Oh. Well...good luck.

It'll be an interesting conversation at least.