aefenglom | A request [text]; un: Berserker

i'm looking for someone with good morals to bond with flat escardos. i'm bonded to him and that's fine -- i'm not looking to annul the bond or anything like it. if you're not inclined to bond with him, then being willing to explain why the behaviors he considers normal are not normal is good enough.

he is basically a wild animal in human form. he is friendly and outgoing, but don't be lured into a false sense of security by this facade. he is chaotic and strange and will not stop talking once he starts unless you find a way to forcibly silence him.

this is an incomplete list of behaviors he considers normal:

experimenting on friends without telling them they're a part of an experiment

conducting loud experiments at odd hours

nearly burning down the house while conducting pointless experiments

living in conditions that would embarrass a raccoon

trying to get people to eat wax

i could go on, but then i would spend way too much time writing this post. you get the idea. he has no concept of manners or propriety and doesn't know how to conduct himself around other people. when things are explained to him, he seems to understand, i'm just not the person to explain these things to him.

any offers of help are appreciated. i can get you in contact with him easily...he'll likely reply here, so if you're interested in being his moral compass, you can speak with him directly.

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I'd think these were exaggerations were they coming from anyone besides you.

Sadly, while I fit the qualifications, my own bonded are quite enough as it is.

[ She couldn't handle another disaster in her life. ]

i only wish i were exaggerating.

i would ask you to just speak with him, but you might end up in a conversation you can't escape...

I have a Bond already, but I can certainly put some time aside to talk to yours. If your username means what I think it does, then my credentials can be summed up in a single sentence:

My current Bonded Witch and Servant is Gilgamesh.

wow.

[ A Master. He's not fond of them, to say the least, but... ]

flat is a former master. not mine, but he was involved in a grail war before coming here. but just you being a master doesn't mean you have good morals, considering what most mages are like.

[ He also saw That Post Gilgamesh made... ]

and to be blunt, it seems like you don't have control over anyone in your life.

i'm not trying to get rid of you, just so you know. i only want you to have someone better suited to give you guidance on things i can't.

Before coming here, the only people I knew were Masters, Servants, or NPCs. But, I survived until the end, no matter what insanity got heaped my way.

Are you looking for that? For him to be 'controlled'? I can sit down and explain things, like with the candle, but I'm not about to break in someone like a wild horse.

dont worry, i've heard the story enough times before. you're not the first to think i'm too much to handle and you won't be the last

i'm admitting i need help. i can't give you what you need.

hm, so you've got the determination, at least.

no. i don't want him to be controlled or anything like that. i was just giving an observation...i was hoping for someone that actually had their shit together, that's all.

I brought up the Gilgamesh angle as a testament to my patience.

Have you ever had to start from nothing? No understanding, no support structure, no family, non home, nothing to rely on but somebody who might kill you on a whim and enemies turned to temporary friends? Have you ever had to take what little you've been dealt and build something remotely stable from it?

Life's wild. Some things, you can't or will never be able to control. So you have to adapt and deal with upheavals as they come. It sounds like he's excited to learn and grow.

i guess i should have expected it. i'm sorry i'm this much trouble.

i'll be staying out tonight. is that ok?

A word in his defense: he's... trying. As far as I can tell, he usually has good intentions and he's an admirable lad in his own way.

[a beat]

... but I understand. Truly.

Do you people ever approach others directly to try to solve problems?

i'm an alter servant. that's all you need to know about my history.

and he is. i just can't provide the kind of guidance he needs. he will learn, just...not from me.

[ And that's a difficult admission for him to make. ]

...you're not that much trouble. you simply need things i can't provide you with. come home so i can at least see you for a few moments to reassure you. then you can stay out as long as you wish.

I know he's trying. He's grown a lot since we Bonded and since...everything happened. I'm only asking for help where I know I can't give him what he needs. Of all people, I should not be the one trying to tell him right from wrong...

i don't owe you an explanation but i'll give you one, anyway.

you act like i haven't spoken to him at length. i know what i can and can't provide him and expecting someone like me to be a decent moral compass for him is too much. i don't know many people i would consider good for that, either, so this is the best i could do.

I have no idea what that means, actually. Is that some sort of slang for Madness Enhancement?

You should have maybe learned a little too, before making this post. From Gilgamesh.

Aye, I know. I don't judge you for that. [He laughs softly.] But I wouldn't dismiss yourself out of hand; you possess many rare, valuable qualities, moral or otherwise, and you speak from the heart.

are the friend-experiments also conducted at odd hours?

what are friend-experiments?

how do friend-experiments burn down your house?

[A bit later...]

are you doing well?

i dont need to be reassured.

but ok. omw.

[ he is actually not that far away from the house, having been buying groceries at diarmuid’s request... so one way or another, he had to get home to drop it off.

he’ll be waiting for cu at the kitchen, leaning against a wall as he stares at nothing at all. ]

There's a difference between trying to get him to stop and airing your guys' grievances out on a public network. If I were him, I'd be seriously embarrassed right now. Like not to nag or anything, it's just gotten to be a trend. Guess I started to side-eye everything.

In any case, I'm not up for bonding rn but if he needs someone to talk to then I'm totally here for that. (No experimenting on me, though.)

...

You're being a sap, Diarmuid. [ It's a gentle reprimand. Really, he appreciates the reassurance. ] But...thank you. I suppose you see in me what I can't.

no. i'm not going to explain it. it's complicated and annoying.

i'm not trying to marry him off. i'm trying to get help for him before he kills himself or me.

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