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[polterguide]

Name: Bailey
Date: 2/8
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So, I'm well aware these posts keep happening because everyone here is afraid of being Known, but... Well. I'm pretty sure if I don't get a permanent bond soon my roommate is going to strangle me, and I'd like to avoid that?

[Saori has very powerful mom energies and Bailey doesn't want to see her angry.]

Anyways, a brief introduction: I'm Bailey, I've been here for a while, I'm a faun... I'm not really sure what I can bring to a bond because things like "oh I can cook and play the piano" don't really seem like much of an offering.

(I can do those things, though.)

I guess I can help keep a witch from exploding, which might be good enough. Anyways, sorry for being another person looking for a bond on the watches. Just... Feel free to offer or ask questions or ruthlessly mock me for waiting this long.

Comments

[polterguide]

Well... That's not necessarily the worst idea, I guess? I mean it'd be nice to bond with someone who cares, probably, but...

It might be nice to just deal with someone you can hate a little.

[Bailey?????]

[freecshow]

[Bailey????????????]

hate...? I don't know, hm... that feels like a hard emotion, to be honest. Even a little bit. The only time I've ever felt that emotion the circumstances were extreme for sure

But, to your point, I like the idea of someone who cares... To be honest, I have a bond with someone who cares about me a lot, but even for how much I trust them, I was so afraid of scaring them, or hurting them. Even more with strangers. if your own feelings are all you're worried about and the other persons doesn't apply, doesn't that seem like it's easier? Maybe that's just me....

I'm afraid of burdening someone with my stuff, so at first, I just decided not to.

[polterguide]

[Their logic is sound!!!!!!]

I can't say I've ever truly, deeply hated someone, but been annoyed or hurt by... So I don't know.

Feeling the emotions of other people can be exhausting... Even if you do know them very well, it can cause strain in a relationship. I wouldn't want to bond with someone just for them to decide the feelings I feel are making them miserable and they want to call it off... I'd be better off it I just had to deal with someone else's emotions, because I'm used to that.

Plus there are some things about myself I'd rather people not learn. That's not a conversation I want to have.

[freecshow]

Huh...yeah I get what your saying, actually. And I feel the same way, not wanting people to know certain things about me. That's why I'm still a little hesitant to Bond again. But for what it's worth, if it makes you feel better, um...

well

[Gon feels a little fidgety as he tries to think of how to articulate what he wants to say...]

at least you dont feel each other's emotions all the TIME, it's just when their kind of high, right? And even then... I definitely thought my feelings would make my current Bonded feel miserable because they were SO big and SO bad and way worse than i had actually let anyone know, and I was positive he might regret it at first once he realized all the scary feelings and thoughts i was hiding, all that stuff... but actually we got a lot closer. We talked about some stuff we never would have talked about otherwise... which was hard! but um. I dont know. Sometimes it's good. we've known each other for years and we've never been this close. I kind of can't believe it.....

[shit Gon shut up stay on topic]

not that it's so easy to make that jump but...I guess I'm saying I might have been making it a bigger deal than it actually was, and you might be too. I think I was overestimating my ugly stuff and underestimating the kindness of other people

[polterguide]

It helped you get closer, huh... Well I suppose that's always a potential side effect of getting to know what someone is feeling. I'm sure most people would empathize or be concerned if they suddenly felt someone be upset or afraid or angry or... Whatever. There's all sorts of feelings in the world.

I'm probably definitely making it a bigger deal than it actually is, but it's easier that way than admitting you might need help, I think.

But... Maybe it'll be an opportunity to make new friends.