[ It's not L's pleas that freeze Light in place, but the mere shock of what he's said. L's reply trickles into his ears and for once, is slow to be comprehended. Of course, L knew. He knew, and Light denied, and that's how the status quo worked. Now, he has a confession, an explanation of how he saw their game, a game that would end in the death of one of them.
However, the shock isn't only in reaction to his words, but in L's response. There's no celebration, no 'gotcha', no relief. With this confession, Light loses something. He can deny saying the words if asked. He will deny saying the words if asked. No one will believe Light walked up to him and confessed to being Kira. Still, admission hangs in the air.
Anger sets in next. Kira isn't a reason for shame. Kira was making the world a better place. Once Light was able to move forward with his plans, there'd be no wars, no murder, no rape, no abuse; nothing. With the confession potion still bursting through his veins, a part of him wants to snap at the look of victory he plans on seeing in L's face. 'Why can't you see the good I'm doing?!''You should be smart enough to see that the system we have isn't working, but I can fix it!' 'Even knowing I'm Kira, that doesn't make me wrong'.
The look doesn't come. Instead, a vice-like grip is on his wrist, and L's asking Light not to be upset. Though his exact words aren't a perfect match, the desperation speaks for itself. Light's confession to being Kira is met with reassurance and an off-handed promise that nothing here has to change.
It doesn't, not on a logical level. Here, there's nothing Light can do. His confession as Kira also revealed the truth about his frustration with the fact. Here, L has no reason to chase, and Light has no reason to fight back. They could go back to what it was, only they can't. The 'secret' is in the open now, a confession so large and deep that it could literally lead to Light's death in their world.
Today, L is the master of surprise. Before Light's able to have any kind of outward reaction, he's chest to chest with L as lips press against his. At first, there's no response. Even with his usual processing speed, there's too much shock and surprise, too much emotion, and too many feelings for him to catch up.
The return kiss finally comes. It isn't soft, gentle, or cooing. Instead, he presses with the same heat as he receives, a hand immediately going into the back of L's hair and cupping his head. It doesn't force his face in place, and L can pull back if he'd like, but the hold doesn't encourage it. Maybe this will be his answer for now. If asked, maybe Light can play it off as buying himself time, but it wouldn't hold up. It isn't the first time L has forced Light to act entirely on emotion, a rarity for someone normally so cool and calculated. Still, he focuses on the kiss, on joined lips, and while it doesn't fully replace speech, it'll work for now.
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However, the shock isn't only in reaction to his words, but in L's response. There's no celebration, no 'gotcha', no relief. With this confession, Light loses something. He can deny saying the words if asked. He will deny saying the words if asked. No one will believe Light walked up to him and confessed to being Kira. Still, admission hangs in the air.
Anger sets in next. Kira isn't a reason for shame. Kira was making the world a better place. Once Light was able to move forward with his plans, there'd be no wars, no murder, no rape, no abuse; nothing. With the confession potion still bursting through his veins, a part of him wants to snap at the look of victory he plans on seeing in L's face. 'Why can't you see the good I'm doing?!''You should be smart enough to see that the system we have isn't working, but I can fix it!' 'Even knowing I'm Kira, that doesn't make me wrong'.
The look doesn't come. Instead, a vice-like grip is on his wrist, and L's asking Light not to be upset. Though his exact words aren't a perfect match, the desperation speaks for itself. Light's confession to being Kira is met with reassurance and an off-handed promise that nothing here has to change.
It doesn't, not on a logical level. Here, there's nothing Light can do. His confession as Kira also revealed the truth about his frustration with the fact. Here, L has no reason to chase, and Light has no reason to fight back. They could go back to what it was, only they can't. The 'secret' is in the open now, a confession so large and deep that it could literally lead to Light's death in their world.
Today, L is the master of surprise. Before Light's able to have any kind of outward reaction, he's chest to chest with L as lips press against his. At first, there's no response. Even with his usual processing speed, there's too much shock and surprise, too much emotion, and too many feelings for him to catch up.
The return kiss finally comes. It isn't soft, gentle, or cooing. Instead, he presses with the same heat as he receives, a hand immediately going into the back of L's hair and cupping his head. It doesn't force his face in place, and L can pull back if he'd like, but the hold doesn't encourage it. Maybe this will be his answer for now. If asked, maybe Light can play it off as buying himself time, but it wouldn't hold up. It isn't the first time L has forced Light to act entirely on emotion, a rarity for someone normally so cool and calculated. Still, he focuses on the kiss, on joined lips, and while it doesn't fully replace speech, it'll work for now.
After? He'd handle after later. ]