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un: dagwood | text
Name: Near
Date: 5/29
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I understand this has been an interesting month for some.
I'm curious as to what new permanent changes there might be among the populace.
Date: 5/29
Format: text
I understand this has been an interesting month for some.
I'm curious as to what new permanent changes there might be among the populace.
2/2, private
of troubles.]
Linden watched me vanish through my mirror. He had a plan and intent to kill himself, permanently, if I hadn't returned.
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I hadn't realized you were that important to him.
[This is a revelation of a hole in his mental image of someone, if anything.]
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[To say the very least about their situation.]
I...hadn't known losing me would do that to him. [There are regret and concern alike in Myr's tone. This is a very bad situation that he should, perhaps, have recognized before it occurred.]
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[And selfish, though he won't voice that part aloud. It hardly takes his other bonds into account, not that Near cares so much for how Light would feel in that situation.]
What if you were to return after?
[It certainly wouldn't be the first time someone had.]
I trust you can counsel him better than I can.
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I doubtless would have found myself out a Bondmate. He wasn't thinking that far ahead. [Which is frightening and uncharacteristic, and he doesn't have to say as much to Eli.]
...And, unfortunately--I can't. This is not something he told me and he will not be glad to have it known about him; from past experience, if I were to confront him direct he'd deny that he'd ever contemplated doing such a thing. [A sigh.]
Which is not to say I haven't been trying to come up with stopgaps if something else happens to me, but I've nothing--yet--for the underlying issue. ["The underlying issue," he says so clinically, with a little frisson of dismay at himself for being able to do so when the underlying issue is his Bonded loving him so hopelessly and completely that a world without him in it was one not worth living in.
What did one do for that?]
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[Which may be for the best since, as Near has already mentioned, he's not the best when it comes to comforting his bondmate. Doubtless they would just end up arguing again.]
But I do thank you for telling me. It's important that I understand how dire things could potentially get.
[His finger does its usual twirl through his hair, the motion only slightly sped up through agitation.]
Should you disappear again while I'm still around I will aim to provide a necessary distraction.
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[He trails off. This is something he wishes he could keep in trust, because L trusts him so much, but he cannot.
Broken trust could be mended if they're both still alive. Not so the other outcome.
Eli doesn't also need Myr's regrets piled on top of him; the elf breathes out without finishing the sentence, shifts to the next.]
Thank you. There's a Witch at Heofonlic, [he gives the name,] who you might contact as well. She and her partners are familiar with him; this is their area of expertise.
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He knows that he should at least wish for the ability to feel more sympathetic toward the man, especially given their connection, but this is an area he's always had more trouble with than others when it came to that.
He'll do what he must.]
I wouldn't worry about him being upset with you, should it come up. I'm sure I will provide him with plenty of other things to be angry about.