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Voice- UN: Brumeling

Name: Mira Chambers
Date: 6/21
Format: Voice

[The feed is silent for a moment except for someone on the other end taking some breaths. This kind of thing is hard for her after all since she has to be the one who give out the bad news.]

Not many of you know me but my name is Mira. I'm the mother of two boys who were here before named Vanitas and Sora. You may have met them, even known them by working alongside them or run into them on the street. If you have been trying to reach them and have gotten no answer, then I'm afraid to say they're no longer on this star.

[A pause as there's a hitch of breath on her end followed by a soft mew.]

Seems to be a lot of people vanishing as of late. It feels more empty don't you think?

[There's a rustling from her side and the meowing gets a little louder. The last thing anyone hears before it clicks off is a quiet confession:

"I'm all alone now."]

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[It takes her a while as she weighs the pros and cons, but in the end, Irhya decides to go through with it.]

I've noticed it as well. It may be for the better in most of our cases, assuming we actually get sent back, but even so...

[Pause.]

Are you gonna be all right? I know you three were close.

No, I just lost the last two people on this entire star that cared about me.

So no, I won't be all right.

Is there anything I can do for you? Bringing a distraction, or some tea... anything?

No thank you. I have enough tea here already.

[...]

You mad at me or something?

Rather curious than mad. But allow me to ask you a question as well:

Why speak to me now when it's been moons since we last spoke?

Is there some reason I shouldn't? We grew apart, as people do sometimes, and I saw you were having a rough time, so I decided to extend a hand. Between being kidnapped and myriad other troubles, I hadn't really had the chance to reconnect.

Were you thinking of accusing me of not actually caring about you?

I'm sorry you were among those kidnapped. No one deserved that treatment.

I'm not accusing you of not caring about me. I know you don't. Even while Bonded, did we even do anything together after that debacle with the mirrors? Did we ever ask each other how our days were or ever held each other? When I stayed at my office for days at a time, did you ever come to visit just to see how I was doing?

I sent out a message just like this when Fordola left and you didn't answer. The same woman who sent me flowers as a surprise, who hugged me and told me when I was at a low point that I should take care of myself. That I meant something to her.

Vanitas told me when he asked to Bond with me why: he trusted me to help him heal his heart. That he believed me a good person and cared enough about my well being to even say think on it because he knew how I was hurting.

Do you understand what the difference between them and yourself are? They not only used words but actions. They showed me and I did in turn for them. All I recieved from you were empty words.

I'm not going to pretend we were extremely close, at any rate. But you know as well as I do that friendship is a two-way street. The message you wrote about Fordola was not sent to me personally, but posted on the network; I think I remember seeing it, but not really knowing how to respond. It wasn't out of malice.

I can't offer you the care you want if you won't take it, though. So if you're going to reject my concern here and now, then, well... I can't save a woman from herself. I'm willing to apologize for my part in it, but it is not solely my problem.

[Something has happened. There is some time before another message comes but it's not in the form of a text but rather Voice. And what the vampire hears besides the breathing from the dark knight on the other end, is the tone in her voice. Low as every word is enunciated and crisp and sharp. But there's a deeper emotion under it all:

Anger.

Not the kind when someone would explode or rant or scream but rather the kind that makes people immediately think of danger. To run away as far as they can otherwise someone not not just get hurt...they will die. Irhya has seen Mira get angry while in the Rathmore's manor but she has not seen nor heard of the woman's true fury. How eerie it was when she cut down those poachers who tried to carve up Sora with ease and how emotionless she was when she disposed of the corpses. Or how quiet she was when Vanitas was in danger and how she had no issue cleaving someone in two to ensure his safety. If Irhya thought that this would help her case...it didn't.

Far from it.

But there was also something that clicked with the woman. A realization through the sadness and anger; she just needed the reminder. Mira's jaw clenches as she lets those words sink into her mind, exhaling sharply. She knows what needs to be done now...she just needs to say it.]

Save me...?

YOU save ME?

[There's no yelling on her end but suddenly, there's a chuckle. But it feels much more tired.]

Who do you think you are assuming such things? Do you think 'saving me' will make you feel better? Where were you when I needed someone the most? When I was constantly in tears or hiding my feelings because of the fear of hurting you and Vanitas and vice versa? You think you can come in after many moons of no contact and assume that everything will be alright when we are practically strangers?

It is not alright.

I do not need you to 'save me' because thanks to those boys and my friends even if they are no longer here, I can walk with my head held high. They saved me from despair, not you.

[Fordola telling her that she can be Mira. Lorenz and her talking about books and the weird thing about liking that one dress. Lavi and her weird moment of her knocking him out and then getting treated for tea. Steak and her arm wrestling. Sora and her talking about plants. Mira and Bishop talking about their dancing plant as well as seeing him turn into a kid.

And Vani...from their first meeting to her telling him stories about Ishgard to him reassuring her from the recent kidnapping ordeal to let him in emotionally...

Mira knows now.]

I don't need your saving. Thanks to them, I can do it on my own without fear. I'd be shaming them if I kept crying and hiding away like before and it stops now. If you believe pity is care then wake up because I don't want it. Save me? Ha! It's you who needs saving.

Goodbye, Warrior of Light.

[And it clicks off. Mira will not answer anymore replies after this.]

[ Well shit, it hasn't even been a month and he's already down one employee, but more than that - ]

I'm sorry to hear that. I spoke with Sora. He seemed like a good kid, offered to help out with the bar. Speaking of, if you need a quiet place to adjust, I can offer Fushimi. Close it for the night and leave the liquor cabinet open.

That sounds like him.

Thank you for the offer. I may take you on it later. But without the alcohol. I don't think liquor is good for me right now.

Sure. Just let me know. I got some good coffee and tea here too if that's more your mood.

Never been much of a coffee drinker but mayhap I'll be inclined to try it just this once.

I'll make sure you won't regret it. Not to toot my own horn but, I am as skilled a barista as I am a chef.

[ Who's he kidding? He loves to brag about his skill. ]

How are you holding up?

[ Probably a stupid question but, better than assuming in this case. ]

I'll look forward to that.

I'd be lying if I said I was fine. Getting tired of having to hide how I feel so the proper feeling of shite seems to be more accurate.

[ Loss is a feeling that Bishop is more than familiar with. He was molded and tempered by loss, and it's no exaggeration to say that every decision he's ever made was because of loss or the fear of losing someone, but even then he has a hard time understanding having to hide it. Of course he never wanted to talk about it, but he never had to hide it. No one in his world had to. It was just something unspoken, since everyone there had lost something. ]

That's to be expected I suppose. I think I know the answer but, do you want some quiet company?

To be honest, I do not even know. It is a mix between not wanting to bother anyone and just being unsure.

I understand, it's natural to feel like that. I'm sure you have a lot to wrap your head around now.

[ Now that he thinks about it, he's actually not sure what to do in this kind of situation, less on what to say. ]

If you ever decide you want or need an ear to listen, just let me know. Rest easy knowing you can bother me at any time.

They were close, weren't they?

[I'm sorry for your loss always sounds so hollow. It never helped him when he was grieving, and he really can't see the point in saying it for someone else; all it does is serve to make the speaker feel a little less bad. It's an easy way out of the conversation.

It means he has to take a little longer than usual to compose his message, but he'd rather say something that has meaning.]

I guess all we can do is try to connect with the people who are here. We've probably nearly all lost someone at this point.

Aye, they were very close.

[Yeah, she knew how close they were.]

It's gotten quiet here. It feels unnerving.

[Ferran only ever saw them interact through the network, himself—but in a way, if they were that important to each other, it's sort of nice they were able to go home together.

... he knows personally how that thought is absolutely no comfort to those most affected by their departure.]

I'm decent enough at making noise, if you're interested in company.

[It's the least he can offer, even if it's not much.]

If not, that's fine too. But I definitely understand how a quiet house can be stifling... even if it's still the most appealing place to be.

[Who's got healthy coping mechanisms?? He sure didn't for a while... and even now it's questionable.]

Would I be correct that you would come from a place where it was noisy and you prefer quiet?

[Oh she heard about the company. She's just not sure if she wants any or not.]

Not at all. I've lived in a quiet house most of my life, so I usually spent whatever time I could out of it.

[It's a fair enough assumption, though; his preferences have gotten considerably more complicated over the last year and a half. He doesn't blame her for not answering his offer, either; despite his Fae instincts, he's capable of patience.]

But there was a time where the idea of being out with people was exhausting. Well, I say "was," but sometimes I feel that way now, too.

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