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[loadme]

Name: Monika
Date: Octeuril 18
Format: Text

Isn't it funny how you can spend weeks, months, and maybe even longer in trying to be a better person.

Only for a couple of bad days to make it feel like you lost most of your progress?

Comments

[loadme]

You make it sound so easy!

[curruid_coinchenn]

i never said it was easy.

[loadme]

It's true, you didn't! But you're always so weird at encouraging me.

[curruid_coinchenn]

am i? i assumed i was being direct in my encouragement.

[loadme]

Did you ever think we'd get to this point back when we first met?

[curruid_coinchenn]

no. i thought you'd die before then.

Private; cw: suicide

[loadme]

I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about it.

[curruid_coinchenn]

i wouldn't think it would be at your own hand. i didn't think you were the type to succumb to urges like that. you didn't...and that's what matters.

[loadme]

I envy you. I still think about the past so much. But you always live in the moment.

[curruid_coinchenn]

if you lived the life i have, you wouldn't envy me. when you have no past and no future guaranteed to you, all you have is the present.

[loadme]

I'm the same way, actually. And now that I think about it? We're more similar than I would've thought.

[curruid_coinchenn]

how unfortunate for you...

[loadme]

Ahaha, maybe that's why we get along so well ♥

[curruid_coinchenn]

i don't know what made you the way you are, but the fact you have survived as long as you have means that you're strong...and that is worth being proud of.

[loadme]

Thank you for saying that.

It means a lot to me.

[curruid_coinchenn]

you don't need to thank me, it's just my honest view.

[loadme]

In that case, I'm glad that's how you really feel.

[curruid_coinchenn]

you should know me well enough by now that i will never say anything i don't mean nor will i ever lie about how i see someone.

[loadme]

And I think you know me pretty well at this point, too.

These are just the things I can't help but to say ♥