[ text; backdated to about the 18th ]

[loadme]

Name: Monika
Date: Octeuril 18
Format: Text

Isn't it funny how you can spend weeks, months, and maybe even longer in trying to be a better person.

Only for a couple of bad days to make it feel like you lost most of your progress?

Comments

[loadme]

I've believe you. You've been pretty good at helping me so far.

I just feel like this undid so much of what I was trying accomplish, you know?

[princessascended]

Well, I can't say anything about what you used to be like, but the fact that you're so broken up about that backslide tells me you've made some good steps.

[loadme]

Thanks, it means a lot to me to hear you say that.

I'm still not feeling all that great, but I still have to show you what I normally look like, right?

[princessascended]

I would like to see you.

But you don't have to rush anything.

[loadme]

Thanks, I just need some more time. I'm not really seeing anybody for a bit, only my roommate.

[princessascended]

It's alright. I can be patient.

I've been kinda throwing myself into my lessons anyway.

[loadme]

That's not a bad thing to do. Being distracted can be pretty nice.

[princessascended]

Yeah, well, I've got to put my energy into something, right?

And Divination is really interesting.

[loadme]

Have you tried to read people's memories? I was lucky enough to find some volunteers.

[princessascended]

Not yet. I've mostly been practicing scrying with mirrors and crystal balls.

People really let you look through their memories like that?

[loadme]

I-It sounds pretty weird, huh...

But they were pretty okay with it as long as I was honest with my intentions. Most of the time I just told them to think about a memory so that I could see it myself.

[princessascended]

I guess if they were picking and choosing which memories you got to see, that makes more sense.

I kind of pictured it as just... rifling through their brains. I guess I should have known it wouldn't be something so invasive.

[loadme]

It could be if that's the route you wanted to take. But I'm pretty sure that could get us in a lot of trouble!

And, would also be really mean.

[princessascended]

Yeah, that would be pretty awful.

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to imply you'd do something like that.

[loadme]

It's okay, I didn't really think of it that way.

[princessascended]

So they picked memories they wanted you to see, and then... how did that work? Were you like, watching it like a movie? Or were you them?

[loadme]

It felt like I was watching from the outside. A movie is a pretty good way of describing it.

And if you're really interested in looking at other worlds, you'll need something reflective. A small mirror should be enough.

[princessascended]

Honestly, that sounds a lot less weird than the memory playing out with you as them.

Yeah, I've done a bit of practice with mirrors, but I'm still working on... well, everything, basically. Distance, obviously, but accuracy too. I think I accidentally scryed into someone's shower once. That was embarrassing.

[loadme]

Oh.

Well, we all start somewhere! You'll only get better.

[princessascended]

That's what my teacher said.

Of course, she was also clearly trying to hold her laughter in...

[It's okay to laugh, Monika. It's not like she'll know.]

[loadme]

You believed in me from the moment we met.

Let me believe in you!

[princessascended]

Well, if I don't believe I'll get any better there's no point to all this practice I'm putting in, so...

Thanks, Monika.