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[loadme]

Name: Monika
Date: Octeuril 18
Format: Text

Isn't it funny how you can spend weeks, months, and maybe even longer in trying to be a better person.

Only for a couple of bad days to make it feel like you lost most of your progress?

Comments

[enkidoh]

It isn't easy to do. It takes a lot of energy.

Are these memories relevant to your situation here?

[loadme]

I did some pretty bad things when I was transformed, and it reminded me of how I used to be. I did some pretty bad things back then, too.

I don't want to be that person anymore.

[enkidoh]

if that is the choice you make then the answer is really quite simple.

don't be the person you once were.

[loadme]

Simple doesn't necessarily mean easy, huh.

But I guess if it was so easy to be a better person, we wouldn't have so many bad people.

[enkidoh]

no. no, it is not easy. every choice comes with consequences. but it can be rewarding. it can open doors you have never been able to find.

whenever a person is bad there is mostly a reason why they are that way. they might suffer in their own way. yet it is up to them to realize that.

[loadme]

I think I get what you're saying. I've been trying to better myself ever since I got here and...

It's been pretty rewarding.

I've experienced things I probably never would've if I had just stayed how I was before.

It feels nice, you know?

[enkidoh]

[Enkidu understands humans because they have learned to understand them. They witnessed their development and how they grow. How they take certain paths and make certain choices. And at times that growth stagnates and they change.

Humans are complicated.]

i have never felt that. but i can only imagine how rewarding it must feel.

i think you should hold on to that and allow your soul to grow even further.

[Enkidu waits a little before sending out the next message.]

how did that feel?

[loadme]

It felt nice.

Warm.

And... fulfilling.

[enkidoh]

[Yeah, that must be an amazing feeling.]

if something feels nice it would be a shame to lose it.

and i think that is something you do not want to lose.

[loadme]

It beats what I was feeling before.