[ text; backdated to about the 18th ]

[loadme]

Name: Monika
Date: Octeuril 18
Format: Text

Isn't it funny how you can spend weeks, months, and maybe even longer in trying to be a better person.

Only for a couple of bad days to make it feel like you lost most of your progress?

Comments

[loadme]

I think everyone here could use that.

A bit of rest.

[kivatteru]

Right. After the fog and everything, all of us might need something to unwind all that stress.

Let's look forward for possible festivities coming later.

[loadme]

No shortage of those around these parts, huh? I'm not really used to it. I didn't have much to really celebrate, before.

But I guess that's fine.

[kivatteru]

They're also a good chance to socialize with more people and establish a more secure circle. Maybe you can start again from there.

[loadme]

Are you the type that likes to have a lot of friends? Or maybe a closer-knit group instead?

[kivatteru]

I'm not really the extrovert type. If I have to choose between the two, I believe the closer-knit group would work better for me.

[loadme]

I can definitely see the appeal. I consider myself to be in-between the two. There are days where I don't mind talking to just about anyone and being chatty with them.

But I also have days where I want to... retreat from all that, you know?

[kivatteru]

Wanting to talk to people sometimes is something that I've also felt lately. If I hadn't gotten over my anxiety, we would probably not have this chat right now. But I completely understand the need to isolate one's self from the rest, though too long of a time alone isn't healthy.

[loadme]

It really isn't.

In that sense, I'm glad I ended up here, you know? There's at least always someone around to talk to.

[There are a bunch of other reasons she's happy to be here, though.]

[kivatteru]

[ Hmmm... there's something weird about the wording. ]

Were you always alone in your home world?

Don't force yourself to answer if you're not comfortable telling me.

[loadme]

I don't mind talking about that.

But yes, it was pretty much just... me.

[It's Complicated.]

[kivatteru]

I'm sorry. I can understand how lonely it could be, since I isolated myself for too many years.

It doesn't mean much coming from me, but I wish you find people who will stick with you even despite eventual mistakes and misunderstandings.

And if anything, I'm glad I chatted a bit with you and I think it would be nice if we talked more.