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Name: Rich Goranski
Date: 11/3
Format: Text, though he might swap formats if someone pressures him enough

hey so i have a kinda weird problem?

or well
i dont
its a friend, actually
two of my friends who came from the same place i guess?

anyways basically what happened is this friend
call him jacob idk
he was really close with this other guy from their world
and apparently he asked him out to prom and everything
uh i dont know if u all know what prom is but its basically this dance slash popularity contest at most high schools
super overrated but i mean i get how he feels
he just wanted a chance to make this guy feel really special even if its kind of overpriced and stupid
i mean they could make it special together

but right anyways
so jacob ended up here before they could go out to prom and his friend ended up here too
but his friend doesnt remember that?
like he remembers them being friends and all that but asking him out never happened.

and this friend heard there was a masquerade being planned here
and he really wants to ask this guy out again
but he doesn't know if he'll say yes or no
he doesnt know if its too soon
like jacob remembers all the build up and the way they bonded and really really likes him
but hes worried the friend didnt have that so he might not feel comfortable yet?

and jacob is like bonded with someone already so i think that might make it awkward too
lmao it probably sounds like a soap opera when i tell it

anyways what do you think i should do?

like what should i do to help my friend?

p.s. dont fucking try to figure out who this is about im not posting this to call someone out okay
this isnt a gossip rag just kind of a similar scenario
its not even the whole story so you cant figure it out anyways

[Basically: it's totally not about him guys, shut your traps.]

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Dear Rich.

[Look, he's texting. That's how much he's doing his best not to embarrass Rich. It will probably not last long, expect a call soon Rich, but still... he's trying here.]

Your [Uh.] friend is in quite the difficult situation, I'll say. But if Jacob really wants to ask his friend out again he definitely should. If the situation is complicated, then a conversation about it needs to be had between all of your friends. Waiting for it to be any less complicated won't help matters.

Respectfully yours, Aziraphale.

[Shit shit shit shit SHIT he forgot Aziraphale would totally know about this! He should have locked down the whole post!

WAIT he should have locked it from Michael and Jeremy and Justine too! Shit! There is no way he's making it out of this with his dignity intact, but he may as well attempt it...]

right i think thats what my friend wants to do
the only problem is like
having a conversation would require him confessing to both of them and then trying to sort all those feelings out without hurting anyone
i dont think he wants to hurt anyone
its just confusing

[Even Aziraphale doesn't try to force the conversations to go the way of written mail after the first texts he sends, as tempting as it may be.]

I wholeheartedly believe he doesn't want to hurt anyone, he doesn't seem like the type. Particularly if he's friends with someone like you, who would make this kind of post to find help.

But don't you think keeping these feelings bottled up for long will make things worse?

[Ugh, Aziraphale totally knows. At least he isn't trying to call him out, though Rich is definitely rolling his eyes at that compliment.]

i dont know
i mean i think he thinks itd be easier to just keep things like normal without complicating it
without risking hurting them

i know you said love is supposed to be shared and expressed though

It is, though even I wouldn't go as far as to say that it should always be expressed. Sometimes love, as pure as wonderful as it always is, can make things complicated.

[And you must keep it to yourself for like, 6000 years.]

But I do think talking about it would help, in this case. It'd definitely prevent hurt feelings in the future, I'd say. But in the end it's up to you.

[And then, after a second:]

Or them, that is. Your friend. This is all about a friend of yours, of course.

yeah god knows this is complicated

i mean from what i heard

maybe its just best to talk it out though so no one gets hurt though

[There's a long, long moment of staring at that last message, before Rich decides enough is enough. He's going to have to bite the bullet eventually, and he doesn't exactly feel great lying to Aziraphale.

So he switches his filter to private and sends another message.]

hey i appreciate you trying to keep the secret
but i know its obvious what this is about

I'm sorry dear, I am not good at keeping secrets.

[The only reason Heaven never found out about Crowley and Aziraphale was that they weren't actually paying attention.]

I meant what I said, though. In my opinion you should just talk to them about it, I do not think making a decision without telling them would be wise.

no! you were doing fine
i just meant im being way too obvious, so i thought id just come out and tell you

its just weird
i care about them both a lot and i dont want to screw up my bond or anything
plus jeremy is here too, and i feel weird, like there's some friends code im breaking

And I appreciate you telling me.

[Should he have pretended he didn't know? Maybe he should have, to keep some of Rich's pride intact.]

Would you mind elaborating about that, though? Why would your friend not want you to be happy with the person want to be with?

michael and him have been friends for years
i think since kindergarten or something
as far as i know hes jeremys only friend so theyre kind of attached to each other

i did ask jeremy if they were dating and he said no but
i kind of always got the vibe that they wanted to be
maybe im just second guessing though

That does complicate things a little bit. I have only met Michael and not Jeremy so I cannot give you my opinion on what their relationship may be.

[Once more he wishes he had his powers in this place. With just being around them he would at least be able to tell what kind of love was growing between the two boys, and advice Rich depending on what he felt... but now he'd have to rely on human body language to get his cues. And that would be disastrous.]

But once more, shouldn't you ask them? They are the only ones that will have the answers you seek. And if they tell you they aren't dating, or that they don't want to be, you must trust their answers.

i guess thats probably the best option
i know it all boils down to me actually talking to them
i just was hoping i could get some insight somewhere before i ended up embarrassing myself, which was kind of a stupid hope

do you think i should talk to everyone together or is that going to get way too complicated.

[It hits him then that Rich is actually asking for his advice. Not just listening to him rant of, but actually seeking his counsel.

Oh.

Oh dear.]

I wouldn't know, Rich. I haven't got a lot of experience talking with humans in general, let alone these complicated situations. But perhaps talking to one person at a time would make it easier?

[Of course Rich is asking his advice! Aziraphale is the one so in love with the concept of love, after all. If anyone would be able to solve relationship dilemmas, it would be him, wouldn't it?]

maybe youre right
i was just thinking since it involves them all, that maybe i should explain to all of them at once, but i guess they each deserve to have privacy
i just hope we can all agree to something without me running back and forth too much

unless i talk to them one on one and then all together

[Love lifts us up where we belong! Where eagles fly, on a moooountain high, etc etc.]

Or the other way round. Letting the know your feelings on he matter and then talking to each of the individually to get a sense of their feelings. I've seen cultures and places where people wouldn't even bat an eye at this kind of relationship, but communication always seemed to be the key.

I just thing that the possibility of having something, and the peace of mind of knowing where the others stand even if you disagree with them, is worth the risk. But after what happened when we tried to talk to the SQUIP maybe you should think twice about listening to me...

[He still feels rather guilty about it.]

actually you are right
talking to them all together first might be the best idea
then i can get out how i feel first off without being even more doubtful because of what everyone else said

[And he does genuinely think that's good advice! Even if it's clear that poor Aziraphale is less trusting of his methods as of late.]

hey no dont feel bad about that
its not your fault
i honestly didnt know it was going to be as bad as it was and there was no way for you to know either

im just sorry it made you feel so shitty about trying to help me

I get the feeling we could both apologize to each other endlessly. But no, you did not make me feel shitty in the slightest dear, that wasn't your fault. The circumstances made it stressful for both of you and all I could do was watch.

But this situation is different. Because I'm sure the moment you actually talk things out things will go smoothly between you kids. Even if it doesn't end in romance I'm sure it will end in friendship.

not my fault, just the squips fault
it shouldnt have given you hell just for trying to be there for me
you helped me then a lot more than it would admit so dont beat yourself up

i hope youre right about this whole thing though
i definitely dont want to mess something up and lose any friends
michael and jeremy were nice enough to give me another chance to be better so im not gonna screw it up for them

The only way you would 'screw' it up would be if you weren't being honest with them and yourself. I almost lost a friend because I was trying to do what it was expected of me and I ended up lying to us both, instead of doing what I knew was right.

I can, at least, try to keep you from repeating my mistakes.

im not sure if i was worried about making that mistake exactly
but youre right that i should be more honest with them
lyings supposed to be one of the big no-nos anyways so ;P

Oh, most certainly, She was never a fan of lying. She never let go of her grudge against Cain. Though to be fair that may have been more about the killing than the lying.

[And yet he lied to her face about the flaming sword... he's a mess, Rich, you really should be getting your advice from someone more put together.]

Do let me know how this ends up if you talk to them, please.

pretty sure the whole killing your brother thing would be more of a big deal
yeah lying is bad but theres some times its necessary
killing has way less loopholes

[At least as far as Rich is concerned.]

ill be sure to let you know though
thanks a lot azira

You're welcome, dear, and good luck.

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