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[darkcharge]

Name: Anonymous | Vanitas
Date: 3/1
Format: Text



[ So Vanitas has been terribly frustrated for the last few days trying to figure this out himself. Unfortunately, he isn't really equipped to come to the answers on his own. ]

Normally I wouldn't bother with things like this, but it would appear that all my other options are exhausted or unavailable.

A little while ago I found myself experiencing some strong urges. I can't say that they are entirely unfamiliar, but the circumstances and conditions are different. Wanting to throttle someone and make them pay is nothing new, but because they hurt someone I am acquainted with is. So I suppose my question there is why. This person is perfectly capable of handling it themselves so why is it that I also want to?

Which brings me to the second issue since this is all tied to the same situation. The look this person had on their face? I didn't like it and I don't want to see it again. That is new and I don't know what that means or what it is at all.

This is probably a waste of time, but I can't figure it out. So here we are.

[ tl;dr: Vanitas might actually care about someone - or at least have something of an urge to protect them - but he can't recognize it at all because pfft he's not the sort that does that, right? ]

Comments

[darkcharge]

Who's running here? I'm saying can't be right because I should have been able to figure it out before it got to this point. Shouldn't I have been able to see it coming?

[taciturnly]

Eventually, you'll learn how to.

[darkcharge]

Be able to stop it or at least see it coming?

[taciturnly]

Recognize it for what it is. Accept it.

[darkcharge]

Accepting it isn't all that easy.

[taciturnly]

It isn't, though it might help you in ways you have never imagined.

[darkcharge]

[ Or it means maybe this Bond crap is working. ]

I have a pretty good imagination.

[taciturnly]

Then I wish you good fortune in your endeavors.

[darkcharge]

Yeah because my luck has been stellar so far.

[taciturnly]

Nothing is ever just black or white. A vast world of possibilities exists in-between. Look for them.

[darkcharge]

That's not really helpful either...

[taciturnly]

What do you wish to know?

[darkcharge]

[ He can't see it, but Van is ruffling his own hair in frustration. ]

Gah. I don't even know anymore. What you're saying is what others are saying just in different ways. And I don't know what to think about that or what to do.

[taciturnly]

It seems to bother you. Ask yourself why.

[darkcharge]

I already know why. It goes against everything I knew to be true about myself.

[ Van is the Darkness that had been within Ventus. Ventus is the Light, the one capable of these thoughts and emotions. Van's never known anything but pan and his own negative emotions - his irritation and disdain for the world at large and for his own half existence. ]

[taciturnly]

As I have already mentioned, there is more to the world, to ourselves, than black and white.

[darkcharge]

Yeah, yeah.

Thanks, regardless.