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[darkcharge]

Name: Anonymous | Vanitas
Date: 3/1
Format: Text



[ So Vanitas has been terribly frustrated for the last few days trying to figure this out himself. Unfortunately, he isn't really equipped to come to the answers on his own. ]

Normally I wouldn't bother with things like this, but it would appear that all my other options are exhausted or unavailable.

A little while ago I found myself experiencing some strong urges. I can't say that they are entirely unfamiliar, but the circumstances and conditions are different. Wanting to throttle someone and make them pay is nothing new, but because they hurt someone I am acquainted with is. So I suppose my question there is why. This person is perfectly capable of handling it themselves so why is it that I also want to?

Which brings me to the second issue since this is all tied to the same situation. The look this person had on their face? I didn't like it and I don't want to see it again. That is new and I don't know what that means or what it is at all.

This is probably a waste of time, but I can't figure it out. So here we are.

[ tl;dr: Vanitas might actually care about someone - or at least have something of an urge to protect them - but he can't recognize it at all because pfft he's not the sort that does that, right? ]

Comments

van yes B(

[darkcharge]

Do you want that list alphabetically or numerically with the most important reason being first?

[loverboi]

numerically. let's go

[darkcharge]

They just bring you down, first and foremost. And while I do have a list and it is rather extensive...

I wouldn't remain anonymous long should I list everything.

[loverboi]

sounds like you're just hanging around the wrong people to be completely honest

[darkcharge]

Now that may not be far from the truth.

[loverboi]

right, you get me! so here's the thing
you probably need some new pals to hang around who don't make you feel like you're being weighed down
the people you care about (yes, care about) should be lifting you up

[ he is

not helping ]

[darkcharge]

They. They do that just fine.

[ Lift him up, that is. He doesn't necessarily think Mira will weigh him down. ]

[loverboi]

that's why you don't wanna call these people your friends?
because they make you feel good?
????

[darkcharge]

[ That's... Not far from the truth. Vanitas is terrified of "feeling good." Because good feelings - and people - can be taken. ]

Nothing lasts.

[loverboi]

ok but
i get the feeling that you push people away just from what you're saying so far. i could be wrong but if i'm not, that's how things don't last, buddy

[darkcharge]

I don't push people away.

[ HE NEVER LETS THEM GET CLOSE. ]

[loverboi]

[ SOLID LOGIC. ]

well okay
i don't know who you are so i can't say for sure, but... friends or not, if people are lifting you up then it's not a bad thing
just have fun with it
you'd be surprised what can come from it

[darkcharge]

Fun. Fun?

[ Another somewhat foreign concept. He's had some fun, but again he doesn't recognize it for what it is. ]

How do you have fun with something like that?

[loverboi]

is that an actual question or are you being sassy

[ he's so...baffled....rn... ]

[darkcharge]

Both, more than likely.

[loverboi]

have you ever had fun
like
ever
or do i need to spell out what fun actually is

[darkcharge]

If I had, I wouldn't know I did.

The only thing I can equate it to would be a rush, but that isn't quite what it is, is it?

[loverboi]

i mean you're on the right track
combine those good feelings you get from those people who lift you up with the rush and that's a little closer to fun!
you might also feel like you don't want it to end

[darkcharge]

"Good" feelings...

[ He doesn't know what sort of feelings those are supposed to be? ]

[loverboi]

...oh my god this is worse than i thought

[ lance....please. ]

[darkcharge]

Don't mock me.

[loverboi]

i'm not mocking you i'm just
have you felt nothing up until now
honest question

[darkcharge]

Yes? Who feels nothing?

[loverboi]

oh i stand corrected
have you always just been a negative nancy
is that it? did i crack the code?

[darkcharge]

Perhaps.