aefenglom | text; anonymous

Name: Anonymous | Vanitas
Date: 3/1
Format: Text

[ So Vanitas has been terribly frustrated for the last few days trying to figure this out himself. Unfortunately, he isn't really equipped to come to the answers on his own. ]

Normally I wouldn't bother with things like this, but it would appear that all my other options are exhausted or unavailable.

A little while ago I found myself experiencing some strong urges. I can't say that they are entirely unfamiliar, but the circumstances and conditions are different. Wanting to throttle someone and make them pay is nothing new, but because they hurt someone I am acquainted with is. So I suppose my question there is why. This person is perfectly capable of handling it themselves so why is it that I also want to?

Which brings me to the second issue since this is all tied to the same situation. The look this person had on their face? I didn't like it and I don't want to see it again. That is new and I don't know what that means or what it is at all.

This is probably a waste of time, but I can't figure it out. So here we are.

[ tl;dr: Vanitas might actually care about someone - or at least have something of an urge to protect them - but he can't recognize it at all because pfft he's not the sort that does that, right? ]

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I don't push people away.

[ HE NEVER LETS THEM GET CLOSE. ]

[ SOLID LOGIC. ]

well okay
i don't know who you are so i can't say for sure, but... friends or not, if people are lifting you up then it's not a bad thing
just have fun with it
you'd be surprised what can come from it

Fun. Fun?

[ Another somewhat foreign concept. He's had some fun, but again he doesn't recognize it for what it is. ]

How do you have fun with something like that?

is that an actual question or are you being sassy

[ he's so...baffled....rn... ]

Both, more than likely.

have you ever had fun
ever
or do i need to spell out what fun actually is

If I had, I wouldn't know I did.

The only thing I can equate it to would be a rush, but that isn't quite what it is, is it?

i mean you're on the right track
combine those good feelings you get from those people who lift you up with the rush and that's a little closer to fun!
you might also feel like you don't want it to end