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[darkcharge]

Name: Anonymous | Vanitas
Date: 3/1
Format: Text



[ So Vanitas has been terribly frustrated for the last few days trying to figure this out himself. Unfortunately, he isn't really equipped to come to the answers on his own. ]

Normally I wouldn't bother with things like this, but it would appear that all my other options are exhausted or unavailable.

A little while ago I found myself experiencing some strong urges. I can't say that they are entirely unfamiliar, but the circumstances and conditions are different. Wanting to throttle someone and make them pay is nothing new, but because they hurt someone I am acquainted with is. So I suppose my question there is why. This person is perfectly capable of handling it themselves so why is it that I also want to?

Which brings me to the second issue since this is all tied to the same situation. The look this person had on their face? I didn't like it and I don't want to see it again. That is new and I don't know what that means or what it is at all.

This is probably a waste of time, but I can't figure it out. So here we are.

[ tl;dr: Vanitas might actually care about someone - or at least have something of an urge to protect them - but he can't recognize it at all because pfft he's not the sort that does that, right? ]

Comments

[itsjiaheng]

well yeah
ideally
maybe not so dramatically
maybe just whatever to help them feel content
but it's not supposed to be a bad feel when that happens anyway
like i said
you get happy when they're happy
so win-win
or that's the idea

[darkcharge]

Making sure someone's happy so that you can be happy seems inherently selfish.

[itsjiaheng]

no no that's not the reason WHY you do it
that's just the bonus of doing it
you do it because you care about them and want the best for them

[darkcharge]

I suppose I will just have to wait and see. If it ever reaches that point.

[ He kind of hopes he doesn't. ]

[itsjiaheng]

fair
but like
don't try and fight it too much ??
just roll with it

[ just keep giving out the advice he never follows haha. ]

[darkcharge]

Just roll with it...

[ He doesn't even really know what that means, dude. ]

[itsjiaheng]

yeah!
you know like
just go with the flow
relax and attempt to enjoy~

[darkcharge]

Easier said than done. I prefer to remain in control.

[itsjiaheng]

yeah well
that's a mood
how about...
keep on doing whatever you've been doing
cuz you got this far
just don't be weird about it

[darkcharge]

Weird? What do you mean by that?

[itsjiaheng]

like don't be weird like
don't go out of your way to change anything
because like...
if you're not big on touchy feely feelings-y things
you might want to do something to not go down that road
just a guess

[darkcharge]

I really don't understand what you are getting at.

[itsjiaheng]

lol.. clearly
uh let's see...
some people
when they're not super on board with this kinda thing
they wanna interfere in what's happening
like as a defence ?
so all i'm saying is
maybe don't worry about the specifics so much and just
let things keep happening organically~

[darkcharge]

What if I do want to interfere with that's happening. What then?

[itsjiaheng]

then i guess that's your choice ?
no one's gonna stop you
i just think you might enjoy it if you let it be

[ it's the kind of thing anyone would want. right? ]

[darkcharge]

[ Some people might not want him to sabotage anything at all. Though the idea of having choices at all is still...

He's adjusting. ]

Oh who knows. I haven't really committed to one course off action over another yet.

[itsjiaheng]

which is fine !
it's not a race or anything