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aefenglom2020-05-10 07:59 am
dj_jiraiya) wrote in aefenglom2020-05-10 07:59 am
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Name: Yosuke Hanamura | disconinjafrog
Date: May 8th, midnight
Format: Voice
Any Witches still awake that knows healing? I uh... got a problem. Mine isn't really that strong yet and um... [God, he didn't really want to say this because Yu can hear him and his partner was already feeling so bad.] Look, my arm got kinda mauled by accident and I'd rather not go to the hospital so...
I mean, I'll go if no one's awake, I can't really wait too long but, y'know.
Date: May 8th, midnight
Format: Voice
Any Witches still awake that knows healing? I uh... got a problem. Mine isn't really that strong yet and um... [God, he didn't really want to say this because Yu can hear him and his partner was already feeling so bad.] Look, my arm got kinda mauled by accident and I'd rather not go to the hospital so...
I mean, I'll go if no one's awake, I can't really wait too long but, y'know.
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[Sure, he has his bond to essentially find him again. But what's that gonna stop Yu from constantly avoiding him?]
Can't keep making things normal if they're not around for it.
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Than let it. Trying to shove your opinions on something else is shitty, and it'll just make 'em resent you.
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That isn't at all what I meant, dude. I just don't want him to feel like he has to keep away from me. [He's just tired now. And working on getting a salve on the wounds so they can heal better as he speaks.]
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Yeah, but you can't really make anyone feel any kinda way. Already sounds like you don't hold it against him, so anything else has gotta be from his side.
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He's not the type to run away. He faces things head on, but all I'm getting from him is that he needs to be away because that'll somehow protect me.
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At least during the full moon, until he gets used to it. If he's gonna attack people on accident, despite having a bond, than yeah, that'd keep it from happening again.
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[He touched the bandage on his cheek, biting his lip.]
He didn't attack me by accident. He... wanted someone to hold and I don't think he knew he even had claws. That's what I meant by it. I could hear and feel what he felt and his intention was never to attack.
[That's what made this so weird and complicated.]
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But that second bit-- that adds a bit more context. So Narukami was.... just being clingy and went overboard. Huh. He knows Fie's had times where her pack-seeking instinct starts to flare up before and around full moons, but its never been paired with the claws coming out.]
--Right. You guys are bonded.
[And he's still super unclear on just what their relationship is. Partners, best friends, something else, who knows.]
I still say give him some space. At least for him to get his head together. Than just be ready for when he comes back. This town ain't that big.
[its pretty big.]
And if he's not a complete idiot, he won't go breaking the bond or things'll get worse. Just give him a day or two, then see if he's chill'd out again.
> private
[Because wow is he still reeling from this whole thing. He couldn't really hear Yu's thoughts anymore and he wondered if that was due to proximity or because the day of the full moon passed and it was going to start waning. It's here he decides to private the conversation in case Yu happens to see it.]
I could hear his thoughts but he couldn't hear mine so... I don't think he meant for me to find out he likes me. So on top of him freaking out over the changes, I don't know really know what to do about that.
[Look, he just needed to get it out, regardless if Aragaki cared or not. No one's ever confessed to him before, no one ever liked him like that. He was a pain in the ass and all that. He knew that much about himself.]
How do you guys deal with all this? And he better not go breaking the bond or I'm punching the snout of his.
Private ad infinitum!
[It's a dry murmur, and its really unclear if it was actually intended for Yosuke or not, but it's there, and like Shinjiro actually cares if Yosuke hears him muttering to himself.]
The thought thing's news to me. I haven't had that with my bondmates. [He can at least admit that readily. And maybe it had to do with how private and controlled the three of them can be at times. (Well. How controlled Fie and Louis can be.) But he's had emotions, vague ideas as to locations, the odd dream or two-- but it's never been unfiltered enough to transmit thoughts.]
The bond's never been too bad. Like the emotions and shit are weird at first, but you kinda get used to it. Just don't act weird about it. You gotta figure out whether you're gonna pursue him about whatever you feel, or give him space and time first.
[A pause.]
Dunno what to tell you about him liking you, though. Took me months to figure out Fie liked me, and that was even after Louis threw a whole thing to try and get us together. Still not sure if I'm doing it right, but whatever.
I dunno, just go for it.
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[Yup, this is why he's freaking out. He's just going to roll over for a second to groan into his pillow because while Shinjiro is actually offering good advice on this... there was just one problem.
He was pretty sure he was straight. Like, he liked girls, and only girls. Right? That's how it's always been! Sure he noticed that Yu has nice hands, was extremely good looking, he looked super nice without a shirt on, was nice and thoughtful, any girl would be lucky to have him as a boyfriend so it was really weird that Yu never went for any of the girls that were fawning all over him and even opting to ditch them to hang out with Yosuke and--
Jesus H. Christ, Yu's liked him for a long time, hadn't he? And here he was being oblivious and stupid because of the dumb shit he's said in the past most likely. Now he just whined into his pillow because that particular revelation combined with his thoughts on Yu and...]
I don't even know if I'm gay, dude, how the hell do I just 'go for it'?!
[Because what the hell, was he really not straight? How did that happen? When?! Sure, he tried to be better about that stuff but the thought of being with other dudes still squicked him out! Except... well, except Yu. For some reason, that didn't feel weird at all.]
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[Again, there's... a lot to unpack in the pauses between those sentences. And of course. It's one of those situations. You classic teenage angst of 'who and what am i actually' that he thankfully skipped out on by being too busy wanting to be dead and having little to no care or respect for himself.
none of that is good advice. 'just care less' is probably not what yosuke wants or needs to hear.
but at the same time, it seems wild to be hung up on someone having a dick when they're turning into some kind of possibly-furry hellbeast.]
Then just ignore it. Shit, it ain't that big a deal wither way. People don't die from someone not liking them back. And they don't die of touching a dick once and figuring out they ain't into it, either.
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For one thing, he kind of didn't care about the whole touching dicks because for once, his mind hadn't gone that far. It was more about something else.]
He doesn't deserve a let's try it answer. He doesn't even know I know. He deserves an actual answer, a yes or a no and I don't... I don't want to lead him on. He's already going through a lot, me not knowing who I'm into anymore really isn't something he should be worrying about.
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[There was a long time he bitched and moaned about not being even sure if he liked anyone, or if it was even right to like anyone, since he's ultimately a dead man. It was stupid. He still feels stupid.]
Take your time. Figure out if you even want to do anything about it. If not, then whatever. If so, go for it. Just knoiw that you ain't ever gonna really know. I already told you, I still ain't sure if I'm doing things right half the time, and we've been together almost half a year.
So don't expect to just wake up and have it all sorted out.
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[Self-deprecating right here, but he knows Shinjiro is right. He likely wonβt ever know for sure 100%. But what he does know is that Yu still deserved a better answer than a maybe with a bunch of question marks and asterisks next to it. At least one other thing was also clear, at least he wasnβt freaking out as much as he thought he would.
Maybe he was a lot more open to the idea than he realized? He didnβt know. But it was probably better to take advantage of that now before his brain ultimately caught up and freaking out finally happened.]
But yeah, youβre right. Besides, Yuβs crisis is a little more more important than mine so Iβll just use that time to try and figure at least some things out.
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Alright, fair enough on that one.
[At least disco-boy here sounds a bit calmer, even though nothing's actually been resolved. But that... tends to be how it goes, Shinjiro is finding. Which is weird, but whatever.]
Don't worry too much about him. Remember: it's basically a requirement that Persona users got a strong will and sense of themself. Something like this sucks, but shouldn't completely break him. You're fine now, after all, right?
So just give him some space and be ready to help him when he comes back.