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[While still certainly not one of the most notable people using the network as it remains his least favorite mode of communication, these days, Ozymandias has gotten into a better habit of at least looking at what's being posted. He can't quite tell if he's surprised Berserker is making this comment on the network or not. In some ways, it seems like it would be something he could be predicted to do with how much he's changed since coming to Aefenglom. But given his reluctance to speak of his feelings, it seems a bit surprising he would create the avenue for potential discussion.]

[And so, Ozymandias decides to err on what he believes to be the side of caution, and responds in a private manner.]

It is quite unfortunate to experience once let alone twice. My condolences.

Have you plans to occupy your time?

[Because letting oneself experience the grief is certainly well and good, but dwelling in it likely won't help matters much.]

[ Flat knew too many people he didn't, so it only felt fair to notify everyone of his absence. It's a surprisingly thoughtful action coming from someone like him. ]

no. i don't really want to be at home, but i don't want to leave either. there's too many reminders.

Grief is a difficult emotion. On the one hand, it compels us to remain connected to what we have lost, but on the other it causes great pain to be surrounded by such reminders.

Just don't go running off without telling anyone if you need to be alone.

[He generally trusts Berserker will tell his Bonded, but grief also makes people things they wouldn't normally do sometimes, too. So the gentle reminder probably doesn't hurt.]

And if you need somewhere to go, you know my mansion is always available to you. There is more than just myself these days, but none of my other guests will bother you.

[Nitocris certainly won't if Ozymandias tells her to leave Berserker be at the very least. Sheva, when she pays Ozymandias a visit, is perhaps a bit more of a wildcard, but if anything, she'd mostly offer to drink in silence if she approached him at all. Her own loss of her Bonded is still fairly fresh, so that extent she can relate to some degree what the loss is like and the not wanting to really dig into the feelings from it. Arthur... Well, he's a bit more of a wildcard. And Daenerys is often at her farm far more than she is in the city.]

[So, for the most part, what Ozymandias says is true. It's at least closer to the truth than not.]

...i'm not going to run off. i don't want to let my other bonded out of my sight.

[ Everything will end eventually, he knows that, but he wants to make the most of what he has right now. It's shaken him to lose two Bonded that he cared about so deeply that he has to wonder if he's cursed. ]

while i'm not turning down the offer, don't expect to see me.

I never do.

[Their paths always appear to cross at unexpected times. Which in a way isn't altogether surprising given the nature of their relationship. Berserker may accept Ozymandias' extension of friendship, but there will perhaps always be a certain degree of reluctance to that acceptance. (Even if it's a bit lesser than it used to be these days.) And Ozymandias has never seen much sense in pushing beyond what's necessary but especially not at a moment such as this.]

But I'm fairly certain if I don't remind you, a part of you tends to willfully forget. It's an understandable impulse especially at a time like this, but it does not always serve you well.

I'd rather you not make use of the offer but know and remember its existence than need it and be unable to think of it.

you don't need to lecture me. i know what's been offered to me. we'll see if i make use of it.

[ Maybe when he's feeling a little bit better, he'll pay Ozymandias a visit...Or maybe sooner because his sphinx kitten sounds enticing right now. ]

[Well, Berserker can't be in too terrible shape if he has it in him to get ornery in Ozymandias' general direction. So, Ozymandias doesn't mind it all too much.]

I suppose we shall.

Be well, Berserker.

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