aefenglom | text; un: berserker

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text; un: berserker

for those that knew him, flat escardos is gone.

don't ask me anything else about him.

i don't know if i'm going to seek anyone else out...i guess this is what we get for letting people in.

The closer they get to us, the more vulnerable we make ourselves. But honestly, I don't think that's too bad.

It's tough, but I've had enough of being lonely.

[ Vulnerability. That's exactly what it is...And that's what he's feeling right now. A trapped animal, his weakness exposed. ]

my entire existence has been lonely. this feels like punishment for going against what i was made to be.

are you the same?

[She's had those kinds of thoughts before, but to see them so... out in the open like that.]

I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel like that, sometimes. I never wanted to settle for what I was "supposed" to have.

But the more I tried I fight against that, the worse things got!

i'm seeing the same things. for all the progress i make, i lose so much more...

but loss is something everyone experiences. it's just so new and raw for me to feel this much.

[ Or is it? It's not like he truly knows. ]

At the end of the day... I don't really regret wanting to have more. Even if it's hard, and it ends up hurting me.

I just want to be happy.

i still don't understand what it means to be happy.

[ In the end, they're two broken people trying to come to an understanding. ]

...as long as you have no regrets, that's all that matters.