UN: kingkon55

[freecshow]

Name: Gon Freecss
Date: 7/14
Format: text
Is this wo rking??

ah

These things are hard to use... can anyone see this?? is this in the right place

Anyway hi Im new and Im a monster mirrorbound! Im kind of learning about some stuff but i dunno how i feel about them. I'm also curious so I guess I have some questions too...

1) Has anyone here ever regretted making a bond? I heard that people can feel each others feelings and stuff... it sounds way more intimate than a normal relationship and it made me wonder if people sometimes make mistakes with choosing their bonds especially cuz its kind of a survival/health thing, right??

2) To othr monsters whove felt it before, what's being feral feel like?

3) again other monsters, what was your most painful physical change?

Thank you very much!

[that took so long to write and Gon knows it is RIDDLED with mistakes but what is important is that IT'S DONE so he just goes ahead and sends it. hopefully it ends up where it's supposed to...]

Comments

un: ven

[callmeven]

my most painful change was when i lost my teeth definitely

video! un: kirstein

[trost]

[ typing is a struggle and he doesn't feel like typing today, so enjoy this tall man staring at the watch from an unflattering angle as he .... washes dishes??? ]

Someone ... told me it's like marriage. [ UNSURE ABOUT THIS. ]

[freecshow]

Huh really??? losing teeth doesn't sound TOO bad

[easy for the boy who blows his limbs off for sport to say]

Um
is this Ventus?

[freecshow]

[Gon is momentarily distracted by the visuals, then balks. he scrambles, nearly dropping his phone.]

I cant get married, I'm 15!!!!!!

text;

[whydogs]

Dying sucked.

Wouldn't recommend it.

[freecshow]

[if it wasn't such a damn inconvenience to type, Gon would probably say something cheeky about kind of already being aware of that.]

Oh wow
Dying was part of your monster transformation???? Jeez
Are you ummm a vampire?

[whydogs]

I sure as shit am.

[freecshow]

Wow!!!
Huh so I guess thats not a lot of changes overall but more like a couple of super big awful ones.....

[whydogs]

Honestly drinking blood was harder to get used to.

[freecshow]

Really?
I guess even if your instincts change, it still feels kind of unnatural for your diet to just become liquid..... and also becoming that type of carnivore is probably a little stressful

private.

[killuwatt]

hey Gon what's with that bond question?

[ are you thinking of making a Bond you'll regret, bud???

what normal relationship is he comparing it to?!

Gon!!!!!! ]

[freecshow]

[Gon actually yells when he finds Killua's private message (which takes some finagling to even figure out where to retrieve it from), his heart racing. SHIT, how did he......... forget that Killua would probably totally see this!! this wasn't a post for EVERYONE WITH ACCESS TO THE NETWORK EXCEPT KILLUA ZOLDYCK

and of course Killua's got his fingers on every pulse.

Gon pauses, then sighs in frustration, scrubbing his hand down his face while he thinks of his response. should he be honest? —why does it feel like he can't be honest? why is this even making him feel so on edge?! GOD, okay, this is stupid. Gon gets himself to the arduous task of responding to Killua.]

Uhh
Oops
Hi!
what do you mean

[.....okay. damn it. not quite. since when does he go with plausible deniability!? he doesn't even know what that phrase means! this is a mess. why is his head so screwed up about this]

text; un: wvelvet

[tryhard]

1. If you're concerned about being stuck with a Bond partner you're unhappy with, you may get your Bond annulled and find a new one. There are no negative physical effects. You will not be forced to stay Bonded to someone with whom you don't want to partner.

2. You lose control both physically and mentally: your changes overtake you, and you may do something you regret. There is significant risk of hurting somebody else or yourself depending on the level of ferality you experience. I certainly do not recommend it.

3. What kind of Monster are you? A full shift is particularly unpleasant, especially the first time, though the changes you must contend with will naturally be very different between species.

[killuwatt]

Why are you asking the network if anyone's specifically Regretted making a bond?

[ oh, he's pretty sure he knows why, with the other context. they haven't really talked about it, but Bonding seems like the most natural and likely necessary progression of their friendship here.

Of course, they should discuss it, he knows, and yet--

Well. They've both been avoiding it, haven't they? And now Gon decides to ask strangers on the internet before brings his concerns to him. Killua didn't expect it to... sting.

It feels like Gon is practically announcing he thinks he'll regret Bonding. Killua can't help but assume he means with him. ]

[freecshow]

[Gon's shoulders drop, not clever enough to know how to squirm his way out of that one. he's not manipulative, and he's not a good liar. and he'd never wanna be either of those things to Killua, either. but his heart races as he swallows, thumbs idling over the touch-screen was he swallows.

Gon's of course slow to write his response, but it's slower still cuz he's nervous.]

Well....To be honest, I guess becuase Im kind of scared.
and mirrorbound people have a more relatable experience to offer than books and Im bad at studying anyway

[Gon knows he isn't elaborating completely, though he's unaware that he might be implying quite plainly that more specifically, he's too scared to talk to Killua about it. so here he is. he can't just say he's too afraid to confront Killua with the idea, though that's also something he knows he has to confront eventually. it's just...after the Lunar Eclipse show...

he's kind of testing; everything feels more delicate, and Gon's...well, almost literally, like a bull in a china shop with his indelicacies sometimes. he's trying to be careful.]

[freecshow]

Wow!!! You answered all of them thank you!

1. Ooooh okay thats good to know...

[magic divorce.....

though that person would still be walking around with intimate sensations of Gon's darker feelings, ones he specifically doesn't wish on anyone. that feelings link shit is NOT FAIR.]

2. is that true for all monster types??? I guess it doesnt make sense to me that all monsters are inherently violent or something.... and what youre saying sounds like violence

and 3!! um Im pretty sure im a faun. Unless dragons are sometimes hairy. and yeah that maeks sense, Ive thought about how different kinds probably suffer at different levels physically

[killuwatt]

[ Killua could call him. But he waits instead, giving them both time to think -- for better or for worse. He doesn't know if talking out loud will actually help when it's clear they've both been at some level avoiding the subject already. Maybe it's better to do it this way. Even if it doesn't feel as... close.

His responses come much quicker though. At least Gon can't hear the anger. ]

this isn't about books. obviously it makes sense to ask people too

but why are you worried about regretting it?

it's not like anyone's gonna force you

[freecshow]

[Gon feels similar; on some level, he's already thought about asking to come over so they can talk... but even though it's harder to be heard accurately this way, maybe this is best for now.]

Im not worried about that
Im worried about the other person feeling forced
and Im worried about hurting someones .... um... well like... that kind of bond...
their heart, or something? Or something like deeper and harder to describe

[Gon's throat feels tight. he hates talking about this. he actually hasn't talked about this, but it's not like Killua doesn't know this stuff about him.]

Theres something really messed up inside me

[it's an angle of rejection Gon's never been forced to consider, before; a place that sort of forces you to bear your soul to another person.]

I dont wanna get it on someone else

text;

[unsundered]

[Ah, Bonds. This is one subject that generally gets Emet-Selch's attention. He'll even give an answer for this one.]

Yes... to your first question, of course.

There were two- perhaps three, that I formed that should not have been. Two discarded, one removed on a departure- so it's all been cleared up quite tidily.

[It was not tidy.]

One yet remains to me, so it's not a hopeless endeavor to find someone to tolerate.

As a witch, your other questions don't apply, I'm afraid.

Private un:ma text

[stopfen]

[thank you tech friends for showing her how to hide her stuff. Even if this supposed 15 year old's responses wouldn't be hidden. It let her mostly keep her secrets. ]

Getting a bond is difficult. I don't think anyone treats it lightly, but it's better than going feral and attacking someone.

text;

[judgementor]

To your first question - yes, I have regretted it, for want of a better word, but it's far preferable to the alternative. I object more strongly to the unavoidable necessity of it, but it is necessary.

To the second, it isn't a state I would recommend you allow yourself to get into. It can be a complete loss of control over every animalistic urge that your new form can impose upon you. Mistakes can be made that it's difficult to come back from.

And the final, I would venture that dying was the worst, but being unable to stop a full and sudden shift into an entirely different shape every full moon is a very close second.

text; un: steak

[battlebound]

1. I haven't, but they are difficult things to maintain.

2. Like you're battling against yourself in a cage made of your own flesh.

3. The shifting of my horns. [ Though, admittedly, that is in large part due to the fact that it hurt his pride to see his beautiful horns turned into a horrible, unfamiliar shape. ]

text; network name: "Stiles"

[mensrea]

Looking at your other responses here, you're probably too young to have gotten drunk, right? Well, going feral is kind of like that. You lose your inhibitions. Don't let it get that far. Trust me.

text; un: berserker

[curruid_coinchenn]

1. no.

2. it's not pleasant. a loss of control, a need to act on instinct alone. you will lash out at people you care about without meaning to and you might hurt or kill them.

3. wings...or horns. neither of those were pleasant.

un: vivelafrance

[thejoyrider]

I have never had a single regret about any of the Bonds I have made since my arrival and I doubt I will ever will

[Meet Aefenglom’s biggest Bond fan, Gon]

As for your other question, probably when my my wings were growing. They gave me bad fever for a few days