[He has to stop for a moment, blinking back at Yona's initial answer, because as the Lan Sect Leader, Xichen has always been held to the good he was for those around him. It was what he was born for, with his personal interests and desires meant to reflect those of his people. Being free and willful was a privilege for other people.

But perhaps if he had thought more on what he wanted in the first place, he could have avoided some tragedies. Or maybe not. As Yona said, it's impossible to completely know someone else's heart, even if they seem to agree with you. If they are holding back, no one has the power to see beyond that wall. He closes his eyes, trying to do what she suggests.]

I... thought I could be content supporting my friend, offering a better life than what he was granted before. But I don't wish for my Bond to end with that. Such a connection should be more.

[He opens his eyes again, looking troubled.]

I don't want this to be convenience.