un: anonymous;

[thisisamazing]

Name: "anonymous" (Hiccup Haddock III)
Date: Feb. 2
Format: Text

some things recently came up and it has me thinking a lot. i'm not sure who else to ask this? the person i'd normally talk to is... part of it.

is it possible to have romantic feelings for more than one person at the same time? does that make you a bad person? i never had to consider it before because i thought everything would be simple, for me at least, but now it isn't so simple and i'm not

sure what to do

i don't want to hurt them

[ooc: Hiccup is posting anonymously but as this function isn't always reliable, let me know if you want him to anonfail! He's having some relationship troubles whoops.]

Comments

[thisisamazing]

back home it sort of is. very small village, not many people in my age bracket. i never considered that i could have feelings for anyone but her, and then i met him.

[rightfoot]

Oh. Wow. Well, welcome to bisexuality, kid.

I mean, they prefer where I'm from for people to be monogamous, but I feel like it's totally possible to fall in love with multiple people. And it's probably even more likely when you spend a lot of time around a lot of different people.

[thisisamazing]

is that what it's called? the fact that he's a guy doesn't bother me. it's just... everything else i'm not sure about.

[Honestly when Fishlegs and Ruffnut looked like they were going to get together, they weren't sure who Snotlout was jealous of, so the concept isn't all that out there.]

yeah, i guess so. i wouldn't have met him if it weren't for this place. and i'm glad i did. he's... amazing. even if everything's ruined between us after all this.

[rightfoot]

When you're attracted to both? Yes, that's what that's called. I'm far from any sort of relationship expert.

[ He repeatedly cheats on his fiance and doesn't actually care. ]

But it seems to me someone who cares about you would want you to do what's best for you.

[thisisamazing]

i knew it was possible, we just don't have a word for it back home. people just sort of... are, i guess.

probably. i can't help wanting to do what's best for them too, though. it's hard to put myself above anyone.

[rightfoot]

That might be for the best. For people to just be as they are.

I never considered being honest with yourself as putting yourself above anyone else. To me it seems you'd be doing others a favor being honest.

[thisisamazing]

you could say that. usually.

[Sometimes being how you are gets you in trouble. Like the twins. But he gets the sentiment.]

i guess that's another way to look at it. not being honest doesn't help anyone, but it's hard to shake that feeling that something might be inherently selfish too.

[rightfoot]

How is it selfish, though. If you can explain why then - maybe it is a little.

But it's better to just be honest about it.

[thisisamazing]

i

i guess i can't explain it. doing something just for me feels wrong somehow? i usually have to worry about everyone else. i probably wouldn't say it's selfish if it was someone else.

[And boy, isn't that a realization.]

honesty. yeah. i should be honest about it.

[rightfoot]

There you go. If you wouldn't tell someone else that it's selfish, then it's not selfish for you.

[thisisamazing]

that makes a lot of logical sense, but not so much emotional sense. but you're right. i just need to convince myself of that.